i guess someone just had to make me realise that i havent had a rest for the longest time. making me realise that i'm not really all that happy after all. and my pessimistic nature isn't helping one bit. just an emotional downfall, one after another. and i dont know how much i can take.

i guess i need affirmation.

i know that i should be happy with what i have. i am, but somehow its human nature to want something more. in this case, i only want one thing. ben.
but then again, its life, it always desnt give you want you want in life.

i never thought that i would see him today. i wasnt into my daily dose of ben. wasnt looking forward to him. but still. maybe a look would be all good to perk my day up. just simply knowing.

so my classmates think its funny to use that emoticon. well. thanks guys. i kinda screamed in the library when i first saw it.

sometimes life doesnt always go the way you want it to be.

i feel so empty without my book.

i'm back in my song writing phase.